Our natural instincts serve us well, up to a point. They’re self-protective and that’s healthy too, up to a point. Let me explain.
Recently I was at a football game with a number of friends. We arrived at the match in two cars and parked in the stadium’s underground parking lot. Our tickets were in different parts of the stadium and so we separated for the game, each of us finding our own seats. When the game ended, I arrived at the cars with one of our party about 10 minutes before the others showed up. During that wait, my friend and I scanned the crowd, looking for members of our party. But our scanning eyes drew some unwelcome attention. Two women approached us and angrily demanded why we had been looking at them: “Why were you looking at us? Are you trying to pick us up?”
That’s when natural instinct cuts in. Immediately, before any rational reflection had a chance to mitigate my thoughts and feelings, there was an automatic flash of anger, indignation, injustice, coldness, shame and, yes, hatred. Those feelings weren’t asked for; they simply flooded in. And with them came the concomitant accusatory thoughts: “If this is the #MeToo movement, I’m against it. This is unfair!”
Fortunately, none of this was expressed. I apologised politely and explained that we were scanning the crowd for our lost party. The women passed on, no harm done, but the feelings lingered, until I had a chance to process them, set them into perspective and honour them for precisely what they were: instinctual, self-protective feelings that are meant eventually to be replaced by something else, namely, by an understanding that goes beyond knee-jerk reaction.
On reflection, I didn’t see this incident as an aberration of the #MeToo movement or as something to be indignant about. Rather, it helped me realise why there is a #MeToo movement to begin with. The reaction of these two women no doubt was triggered by a history of injustice that they themselves (or other women they’ve known) have experienced in terms of sexual harassment, unwanted solicitation and gender violence – injustices that absolutely dwarf the mini-mosquito bite of “injustice” that I experienced by their gratuitous remark.
It’s not without reason that this kind of exchange occurs in parking lots. Recently, I read statistics from a study that concluded that more than 80 per cent of women in America have experienced some form of sexual harassment in their lifetime. In my naïvety, that figure seemed high, so I asked several female colleagues for their reaction to the statistic. Their reaction caught both me and my naïvety by surprise: “Eighty per cent is far too low; it’s everyone. Rare is the woman who goes through life without experiencing some form of sexual harassment in her life.” Given that perspective, the paranoia expressed in the parking lot no longer seemed out of order.
Something else too: reflecting further on this, I began to see more clearly the distance between natural instinct and mature empathy. Nature gives us powerful instincts that serve us well, up to a point. They are inherently self-protective and selfish, even as they contain within them a certain amount of natural empathy. Instinct can sometimes be wonderfully sympathetic. For example, we are naturally drawn to reach out to a helpless child, a wounded bird or a lost kitten. But what draws us to these is still, however subtle, self-interest. At the end of the day, our reaching out to them makes us feel better and their helplessness poses absolutely no threat to us. Natural instinct can be quite empathic when it is not threatened in any way.
But the situation changes, and very quickly, when any kind of threat is perceived. When, to put it metaphorically, something or somebody is “in your face”. Then our natural empathy slams shut like a trap door, our warmth turns cold, and every instinct inside us raises its self-interested head and voice. That’s what I felt in the parking lot at the football game.
And the danger then is to confuse those feelings with the bigger truth of the situation and with who we really are and what we really believe in. At that point, natural instinct no longer serves us well and, indeed, is no longer protective of our long-term good. What’s good for us long-term is, at that moment, hidden from our instincts. At moments like this we are called to an empathy beyond any feelings of having been slighted and beyond the ideologies we can lean on to justify our indignation: “This is political correctness [of the right or the left] gone amuck. This is an aberration!”
Our feelings are important and need to be acknowledged and honoured, but we’re always more than our feelings. We’re called beyond instinct to empathy, to pray that the day will soon come when these two women, and their daughters and granddaughters, will no longer need to feel any threat in a parking lot.