A Ukrainian Catholic priest who was kidnapped last July said his emotional captivity was worse than the physical ordeal he endured.
Fr Tykhon Kulbaka has spoken out in an interview about his 12 days in captivity.
The priest believes he was detained for helping to organise an interfaith prayer initiative in the centre of Donetsk, which became a base for Russian-backed separatists and various gangs that occupied Eastern Ukraine.
Fr Kulbaka was on his way to the chapel in the room rented by the local Catholic community. En route, he stopped at a grocery store, where four men grabbed him, blindfolded him and made him breathe chloroform.
He woke up in what he described as “a small room with a window blurred and walls painted with ugly green colour that reminded me of some Soviet children’s camp or sanatorium.”
He survived three mock executions. “They put me near the wall and shot over my head. When it happened for the first time, I was so scared that I fainted. But they laughed, they had fun,” the priest said.
On the eighth day, a man with a Russian accent accused Fr Kulbaka of being a Catholic. It was not even interrogation, Fr Kulbaka said, noting it was more of the monologue full of accusations and jeers.
“He said that we are enemies” in the Novorussia, the self-proclaimed New Russia. The man told him there was “no place for Uniates (Ukrainian Catholics), schismatics (Russian Orthodox of the Kiev Patriarchate), and sectarians (Protestants).”
This man knew the religious situation very well, the priest said. He even knew the names of the parishioners in Donetsk.
The people who kidnapped Fr Kulbaka call themselves the Russian Orthodox Army. Although officially denounced by the hierarchy of the Ukrainian Orthodox Church of the Moscow Patriarchate, this military group often speaks of its commitment to the Orthodox faith and ideas.
After three days, the “interrogations” were over. Fr Kulbaka said he does not know why his captors released him, but they put him in his car, left him in a small forest and gave back a mobile phone and a laptop.
When Fr Kulbaka managed to reach his brother, who lived in nearby Dzerzhynsk, he received a text message with a threat to leave the region and not discuss his captivity.
After he reached Kiev, he lapsed into a diabetic coma and, for few days, was in a very poor condition. But his spiritual battle began when he regained consciousness.
“The first emotions that I felt when I woke up in the hospital were hatred, fear and desire for revenge,” he recalled, adding that he was afraid of these feelings. “These three days I did not sleep. Three days of emotional captivity that was much worse than a physical captivity.”
At some point, he started praying for his torturers.
“Prayer was the instrument that transformed me and my attitude to them. And the Lord touched my heart,” he told CNS.
“Forgiveness has changed my physical condition,” he said, adding that he started recovering from the consequences of the captivity — a recurrence of cancer, a stomach ulcer and other diseases.
The US Conference of Catholic Bishops helped him with funds for the surgery and rehabilitation. In June, a USCCB delegation was able to see him briefly in Lviv during a visit to Ukraine.
Fr Kulbaka now lives in Lviv and helps internally displaced people. Most of his parishioners left Donetsk, but some remain, and he also tries to arrange help to them and others who, as he said, live “under occupation of the 21st century”.